Esther 4:14b AMP And who knows but that you have come to the kingdom for such a time as this and for this very occasion?
For many years I wondered if that was true. I remember hearing messages at church about “giftings” and talents…about finding your purpose. They would say, “We all have God-given talents that we should be using for the Kingdom.” I would sit there, staring blankly at the pulpit, searching myself for clues that might lead me to my gifts. I figured they must be really well hidden because I had no idea what they were. When I was younger, I had been an excellent student. I would say that I was a cute girl. But, that was about it. I had contributed in making two wonderful boys. Maybe being a good wife and mom were what God wanted me to focus on. I was skillful at my job. But, I could never put my finger on a gift or talent that God had really given to me.
Then came the day that my world changed. Everything turned upside down. I became sick. I literally had a break-down. Mentally and emotionally I was shot. Everything shut down. For one month my life came to a complete halt. It took everything I had to pack my boys’ lunches and make my family supper. During the day I would pray and read my Bible, begging God to heal me and asking Him why He was allowing me to go through this. I asked Him to show me what He wanted me to learn from what was happening.
After about six weeks, I started to heal. As time went on, God started opening doors for me and bringing new people into my life. I learned that I was not alone. I learned that there are lots of hurting people in this world, people who are suffering alone because they think no one can understand what goes on in their mind.
God began to show me that I had been born for this…for this time. He showed me that had I not been put in the place of total dependence on Him, on hitting rock bottom, there is no way I would ever be able to understand and minister to others that are hurting.
Like Esther, things happen to us that we can’t understand at the time. We hesitate. We question. But, God says to trust Him. He can see the whole picture. We only see a very tiny little bit. It’s like looking through the peep hole in the door. You only see what is right in front of you. But, God sees the entirety of the situation.
Trust Him as you walk the path you are on. Perhaps He is preparing you for your time to make a difference.
Lisa Bull sees her life as a journey along God’s divine plan. While considering herself an expert on nothing, she enjoys laughing and has made “choosing joy” her motto. Lisa has experienced God’s unfailing love and grace in her life and wants nothing more than for others to enjoy that same gift in their lives.
Lisa is the daughter and granddaughter of ministers. She has multiple relatives in ministry on both sides of her father’s family including several pastors, pastor’s wives, and missionaries. In fact, ministry in her maternal grandmother’s family can be traced back several generations. She loves being a wife and mother of two terrific young men.