Monday's Musings


I have a confession to make. I’m struggling these days with something that is core to our Christian beliefs: forgiveness.

When I see other people who profess to being “Christian” who do not practice what they preach, who nod their head to the priest or preacher on Sunday but leave the church with an unclean heart, I have a problem with this.

It seems deceptive to me, especially when they often sit in judgement of other people.

Most people who follow me know that I’ve had two years of medical issues. I’ve learned a lot about people during that time. It surprised me to see how many people came through for me…and how many did not.

Promises to be by my side where forgotten. One person arrived at the recovery room after I had a seven hour surgeries and proceeded to say very unkind things to me about my then-12-year-old daughter.

It reminded me of another dark period in my life: my divorce.

Children that used to live at my house were basically not allowed to come over, as if divorce was contagious. A dirty word that, if avoided and ignored, would never touch their lives. People who promised to help me with my children never once lifted the phone or sent a message to them. My closest circle of friends disappeared. The year before my divorce, our house received over 200 Christmas cards. The next year, I received six. Tells you a lot about human nature, doesn’t it?

Matthew 7:4-5 says

…4“Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ and behold, the log is in your own eye? 5″You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother’s eye.

How many people do you know who do this? Offer to help remove that speck from your eye, judging you or gossiping about you when they live in a house made of glass? In many ways, they think they are doing you a service. After all, helping others is the Christian way, isn’t it?

Yet, what many people do not do is take a moment to reflect upon their own actions and words. If they did, they might realize how no one should be judged unless their own plate has been cleaned.

Unfortunately, that means never.

We are all sinners. We are people after all. God did not send his son to reach out to the pure of heart and soul because there are no pure of heart and soul. Somewhere in each of us is a sinner.

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